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[Owlunar]

Hi and thanks @Maggie @outlander @Gazza75 @BlueBay 

I am gradually feeling better and it's a wonderful day in Melbourne today - that makes a difference

I have been very washed out after the events of last week - it was exhausting

I have started sorting out my stuff to go away - that's next week - I spent the weekend battling the backache with the sudden barometric changes in the weather here - I am  really looking forward to the tropics - this can be a wonderfully healing climatle - esp after a really tough and cold and testing Melbourne winter

It is terrible to feel betrayed - it has to be among the world's worst feelings - I will not be attending that clinic again - when I get back from the tropics I will be getting a referral to a different specialist and a psychologist to support my case - I am so over all of that stuff in my past and do not like being told that is still affecting me now 

But things are looking up - it takes time to adjust one's life and plans and I am so glad I had booked my holiday before all of this hit the fan

We can overcome - it is possible - 

And I am blessed to have such a wonderful forum family to turn to

Sending another owl - I so totally love owls

Dec

Blue is my favourite colour

[Shaz51]

lots of hugs my @Owlunar 

[outlander]

@Owlunar 

[Owlunar]

Oh hi @outlander @Shaz51 @Maggie @Gazza75 @BlueBay @Zoe7 etc

Winter is over and it's the first day of spring and I am really glad this is the case - it has been a pretty tough winter in Melbourne and I have been reading that a lot of people have been battling

And Fathers Day - which could have passed me by - my Dad passed away over eight years ago now and he was a man I loved deeply and he was also a man of faith prepared to leave when his time came. I thought of a fatherless Fathers Day when I was out shopping on Friday but I enjoy my father during his life time and I am at peace with it - and I think I am really blessed that way

And I am just about packed up to leave tomorrow - I have to book a taxi for the afternoon and I think I have finished packing - I have a lot less than the last time - I can wash my clothes at the hotel which is better than taking so much extra - it's a battle with the suitcase even though it's small - anyway

I am glad I am spending the night at the airport hotel - that is luxury plus there - much better to do that than leave home ridiculously early on Tuesday for that early flight - and I am so looking forward to the tropics - I wish you guys were all coming too - 

Maybe this year we can have the pool party - that would be fun -

All the best everyone - I will be in touch

Dec

[BlueBay]

@Owlunar  I didn’t realise your holiday was this soon - tomorrow. 

Thats great. Get away from this cold weather. I’m happy for you. 

I remember in your posts you always spoke fondly of your dad. 

I love my dad more than my mum. Can that be possible? 

Anyway wishing you a great holiday. Cairns will be so nice. ❤️❤️

Yes good idea staying the night at the airport. Makes sense. So often we’ve had 6am flights and we would leave home at 3.30am. That’s what we should do. 

[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay 

I booked my trip with only a couple of weeks to wait - and that time has been full of bad weather it seems and I am so glad to be getting away from Melbourne for a couple of weeks - and although my trip to the Sunshine Coast wasn't that long ago it seems to have taken forever to get through winter - has it not!

Of course you can love your father more than your mother - in fact - it's normal for girls - normal for boys to seem to love their mothers more but it is after all - something I read in a psychology book somewhere - our father is often the first male we connect with.

I get it - I loved my father more but I recollect my mother seemed to really find me hard to deal with - actually I think I was honest and obedient and did my school work well - but I was spirited and that was really hard for her and she made it hard for me and in my mind she asked for what she got - but I also feel sorry for her - she was afraid of so many things and didn't want to know about things or think about things - she was stuck somewhere and co-dependent - 

Anway - I can let her go now - I have certainly grown past her - my Dad - sometimes I feel as if he is in the next room and I could just go and talk to him - I never do - but I have accepted that he has died

Your holiday is very close too - next month - it seems a long time to wait but it will get here just as fast and the hotel at the airport - it's very luxurious - Internation Five Star Standard - bigger than my loungeroom and the view runs the full length of the room and if I get on the Eastern side of the hotel I can see from Arthurs Seat to Mount Slide and last year I watched the sunrise which was brilliant - 

It's much easier than getting up in the middle of the night to get to the airport - the idea is to leave the room early though because everyone leaves at the same time to catch their early flights and the lifts are crowded with people and their luggage - there's a bridge going over the road to the airport and it gets pretty busy and the airport is really busy so I leave pretty much as soon as I get up - I have breakfast in the lounge and that's when I catch up with myself - crowded airports are not easy to navigate and also - I have learned to watch for gate and terminal changes - going though security once is okay - twice is excessive - 

The more I travel the more I learn - I am much better at it than I was 4 years ago when I started my adventures

I wish you the best though - I do keep forgetting it's Fathers Day - and it's time I had lunch

I'm so glad you are feeling better

Dec

[Zoe7]

Have a great trip @Owlunar Enjoy the sun and relaxing near the pool. Look forward to seeing some photos when you come back. Much love to you 

[outlander]

enjoy your trip away @Owlunar xo

[Maggie]

Have a nice time away @Owlunar  💜💕💜💕

[Former-Member]

Have a fantastic trip @Owlunar  

Sherry 💕