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09 Jul 2017 11:42 PM
09 Jul 2017 11:42 PM
10 Jul 2017 11:55 AM
10 Jul 2017 11:55 AM
Hi @Former-Member
Monday morning and nice and sunny and I still feel flat - but I know why - it's this time of year and I have done better this year than any year before this I think - which is good
My toe is clearing up - I still have a few days left of the antibiotics and I think they are what is making me feel so off-colour and taking away my appetite -
I hope to walk down to the station this afternoon and buy my rail tickets - I have decided to pay extra and go first class this time because it is easier for someone with a bad back to tip the seat back and not have to sit bolt upright for several hours
And getting my clothes ready to go as well - making sure I have the clothes I want to take ready and not somewhere in the washing or ironing on the day before when I get around to rolling them up and getting them in my suitcase
I am glad I have this to do - this time last year I was getting ready to go to Canberra and I found I did not have enough clothes for a winter holiday but this year I do have them - which is a good thing
This website and the forum family is so great - even though I haven't felt much like posting anything I have been reading and it is so great to have so many cyber-friends
Dec
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11 Jul 2017 01:16 AM
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11 Jul 2017 11:49 AM
11 Jul 2017 11:49 AM
Thanks @outlander
I am feeling better this morning - my tummy is still upset but it's sunny and I am feeling more like myself - (I wonder who I was feeling like when I was not like myself)
Anniveraries happen and they do get easier - but there are times when I stay in my nest and do what ever - I am going to Lakes Entrance this time - I will most likely be off-line then for reasons that are good - time away and hoping this fine weather continues
My big toe seems better - I hope so - I am seeing the doctor this afternoon and I hope he says I can stop taking the antibiotics - I have been on them for so long I think I might glow in the dark -
I hope your tummy settles down - I hope you can get some lemonade - can you get one of those little sister get one for you and one for herself? I would not go past bribery at such a time
Thinking back - I am sure I have used bribery at such times
All the best Outlander - I read your posts and I know you have had a bumpy ride lately - and I missed writing - but there are times when I feel less than useful
Dec
11 Jul 2017 12:13 PM
11 Jul 2017 12:13 PM
Hi @Former-Member
It got very dark and gloomy yesterday and started to rain and my head ached - I think this was the weather - and I felt like staying home and not getting wet - it rained until after dark - not pleasant - but it's sunny again this morning and I have to go down to the station today because I have other business down there
I take probiotics - not when I am taking antibiotics - so I will be glad to get my life back on track - sure I am glowing in the dark after taking antibiotics for such a long time. I am seeing my doctor today and I hope I can stop - I am tired of not wanting to eat - really - aw - I was going to say "fed up" but I am not eating that much
Don't worry about your screen time - I don't think Isaiah:58 applies to computer screens but if I get time later today I will read that chapter and see what it says. I think it all comes down to the way we think of things
I found it hard to get anything done for a few days because my tummy was upset and I had very little motivation to do anything except take care of those things that need it - like washing and dishes and a little bit of cooking - I will be organised in time -
I have someone coming to do my domestic work soon - I am amazed at how different people can be - some people work really well and others less so - I think I should make my bed but the cat is still asleep and I can't bear to move her when she looks so comfortable
Thanks Lapses
Dec
11 Jul 2017 07:16 PM
11 Jul 2017 07:16 PM
@Owlunar
im glad your feeling abit better this morning and more like yourself.
I too often wonder who I am when im not me- strange really isnt it. Kinda like a split personality.
I really hope your stay at lakes entrance will be good and worthwhile you going. You deserve to go away and be happy and enjoy yourself. Anniversaries may get easier but its not something you will forget so they will always be around. Hugs to you and thinking of you when your here and away- always.
Im glad your bug toe is getting better. Its a very pesky thing isnt it. How did you go at your drs this arvo? Lol I had abit of a giggle at the thought of you walking around glowing.
My tummy is still abit funny but it seems to be abit better- hows yours going?
Oh yes bribery works quite well doesnt it
I get it and I understand how not being able to be useful. I get it and you wont have to explain it to me-ive been there many mnay times
12 Jul 2017 12:01 AM
12 Jul 2017 12:01 AM
Hi @outlander
Yes- I am feeling much better and laugh - who are we when we are not feeling ourselves - I guess it's the part of us that tells us when we are awake and not dreaming.
My toe has a bit of healing to do but it has cleared up and I don't have to take any more antibiotics for now - and I have been feeling better inside as well - tomorrow I hope to actually cook something decent for myself and have something more substantial than chicken sandwiches, soup and porridge - I think a stir-fry would be good
I went to look to see if there were any thing happening regarding delays etc on the Gippsland rail line and yes - this week there is and it is possible that I might be able to get up to Lakes Entrance on the train but I would have to come back on the coach and I do not enjoy being on a bus much - and hours of it - ah - no way - so I will have to wait until Friday or even Monday to know whether I will be going away next week or maybe later - just life getting in the way - I would like to build up my walking before I go away - I haven't felt like it for some weeks - no one wants to walk with a sore toe - not sensible either
I hope your gastro thing has settled tomorrow - and you can get on with the business of recovering - I read about the discomfort you were having - hard to know which is better or not - having a bad time at the movies with the kids - and all the other kids - not something I would like to endure.
Or was it better to find out you had the bug other people have had - not fun - not at all - but there are times when I feel a sense of relief when I have a case of "Everyone is down with something like this etc".
The anniversary - mmm - I am trying not to think about it - but it is something that is a part of me - a valuable part - all I went through went toward making me who I am now and I rather like who I am now. It was hard work getting here but worth it
Thanks Outlander
Dec
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