Life can be a Pain

[Shaz51]

Hope ur dental work goes well my Mumma Bear @Owlunar 

Hello @EternalFlower , @tyme , @TAB , @Zoe7 , @Eve7 , @Appleblossom and everyone here xxx

having a few crazy days lately with my cousin feeling tired of life 

with my mum, mr shaz . centrelink , work , the DSP , restrictions from social media ect 

mr shaz has done soo much in the week in the house apart from work 

after my aunty visit this morning , had a few tears ( dont know why ?) maybe because of soo much going on 

[TAB]

Gee , sounds busy @Shaz51  take some time out maybe..

[Shaz51]

sitting here trying to relax @TAB , we have the computers on and music going and had some chips

hoping it all helps soon 

[TAB]

sounds busy @Shaz51  just got washing in here. about to fall asleep, but have ph appt w dr soon ugh

[EternalFlower]

Lovely colours in the photo @Owlunar clouds are beautiful

It is clear skies today but very cold. When weather warms up my neighbours like to drink in the streets.

Not for me. I hate it 

I am just hearing them drunken chatting from indoors. Makes me scared to leave my home.

Winter is a little hard on the emotions if ur not set up properly....it can be vulnerable. My case manager says she can get vouchers for me to get some warm clothes. Hope everyone is cozy and the skies are pretty

@TAB hope ur dr appointment is ok?

Sending love @Shaz51 sounds like a lot happening

@tyme hi!

[RiverSeal]

Hi @EternalFlower 

Sounds like you are coping with an uncomfortable situation at the moment with your neighbors drinking in the street. If it gets out of hand or you want to put it to a stop remember that you can call the police and some areas have a hotline you can call which is not the emergency number 000. Sometimes it's called Police Assistance Line or Non-Emergency Line. It's illegal to consume alcohol in a public place in most if not all parts of Australia so you will be within your rights to contact the police.

Take care 

RiverSeal

[TAB]

thanks  @EternalFlower  nearly fell asleep waiting , ph appt done now.

[Zoe7]

@Owlunar @EternalFlower @Oaktree @Appleblossom @TAB @Shaz51 💖

[EternalFlower]

I did not know that @RiverSeal thanks for that info.

I find it very strange and awkward as the street is public. I am just wanting to go to and fro from my apartment in peace. I have enough going on without the drunk vibes.

They do this whenever its warm and its not even that warm but i guess they take any chance.

I went out to get a coffee and do my laundry 

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7 @EternalFlower @TAB @Oaktree @MDT @Appleblossom @Shaz51 

I went and saw the dental specialist this afternoon and - aw - I do have a dental phobia and it came out when I was there - actually - all day - I couldn't get myself organised at all today - I did some chores.

I feel okay now though - this specialist can't help me - he has to refer me back to my own dentist to be referred again to a surgeon who will do the implants under general anaesthetic - it takes about 2 hours for the procedure and I doubt I could sit still long enough for this process - and I am not a sook either - confronting even another dentist other than my own was a huge effort.

If there was another way? - no - there is not. I haven't spoken to my daughter for a couple of weeks and I think I will text her tomorrow and let her know that this is going to take months - no quick fix - and I am not about it try and explain anything to her about it - I am tired of her Pollyanna comments - I guess I can be pretty tough about my frailties - own them - endure them - and live through them - without someone making light of the issues.

I have spoken to my therapist about the differences in our personalities, our interpretations of the past shared experiences - about her brother I think - and different kinds of education. It's easy for me to accept her - my daughter - where she is - when she is ready to face the problems of the past I can be there for her - I am getting older though - and I would never drive her away - she is the most precious thing in my world after my own life. It's a challenge  - 

The past few weeks - well - the shoulder pain, the burn, the hospital, breaking the tooth that has brought all this too a head and speaking to a kind and gentle psychiatrist about my son and the way my parents behaved - all of this - was a shattering experience. I feel okay about all of that now - that's what I am seeing this therapist about.

And my daughter of course - she is coping with chronic pain now and I do understand - it is hard to deal with.

I am sure of myself though - for a while I was undermined - the burn is nearly healed and I have help with personal care three days a week - so that is being dealt with. The housework is another issue and I am working on that - not really in a hurry about anything - my life is going on as it has been for years and I am interested in what I am about.

My daughter and my dental work - both big issues - I can be touchy at times - also - aware of my boundaries - 

Thanks everyone - for your understanding

Owlunar