Grief & loss - may be triggering

[Owlunar]

Thanks @Former-Member

I like the little pics too - I find them in clip art - and I enjoy looking for something appropriate

Let's see what I can find for this post

Wheee - great people

I got caught in the surf of grief this evening - it happens - like being hit by a big wave and getting sucked out to sea - I used to do body-surfing so the reality of the situation was something I was not scared of - and it passes quickly - but horrible at times - the anniversary is nearly here - so it will pass soon

Dec 

[Former-Member]

Walking with you @Owlunar, the Grief tide, tsunami of annibversaries. Mid July, soon I guess, butbits never just one day, its the week or so lead up and then getting over it, well, for me anyway, it wipes out a whole month, and that's if nothing stunts (distracts me from) the process. It doesn't go, it has to be processed, don't you think. HugzDec💜

[Former-Member]

Yes I think so know that it is coming then try to let it be. Be kind to yourself. Hugs to you all xx

[Former-Member]

Hi Mohill, I see you there 🙂

[Former-Member]

Walking with you @Owlunar, found a lovely pic to post for you but having problems loading again, try again tonight. You be kind to yourself, maybe light a candle, watch a movie, as @Appleblossom would say 'gently bently'.

How's our @Adge going? 🐦🐥🐤🐥🐦🐣 Thinking through you too Adge

I have afternoon shift at shop, wish me luck 🙂

[Adge]

I went back to work today (Thursday) @Former-Member, even though still ill. It's been a long haul.

My workplace does not know how to treat any staff well - they hit me with a major change of shift (clients) for today, at 6.30am before I even left.

Then expected me to do extra drop-offs (take clients home) much later than I was scheduled (or asked) to - nearly 1 hour possibly not paid for.

They often short-change our pay, & severely underestimat our travel times (with clients), taking clients home - therefore we don't get paid for an hour or two (every single week) that we should be paid for.

What a way to welcome someone back, after they've been recovering from illness...

I'm just hoping that I don't get seriously ill again, after having gone back to work - because that's exactly what happened last Thursday (I got much worse).

Have a good night everyone.

Adge

[Former-Member]

Sounds horrible work conditions @Adge, and poor management. As wish you could take your skills elsewhere, hey domr deserve you. Have a good sleep tonight :)🌷🌿🐦😱

[Adge]

Thanks @Former-Member I was hit & punched again by client today - always puts me into a shock state. Scary & very hard to deal with.

I start my first grief session with the grief study (uni) lady next Tuesday. Something different, possibly helpful to look forward to.

How's your painting going, have you painted anything else recently?

I've heard of those waves of grief, maybe I've had that but I'm not sure.

Mostly I just seem to plod along in survival (or stress) mode - without really being in touch with my grief (although I've wanted to).

That's probably because their have been so many external stressors, things to adjust to since Dad died (as well as one loss compounded on top of another).

Have a good night everyone.

[Adge]

It's been a rough few days.

Dizziness & nausea - maybe it's due to this virus & secondary infection I've been recovering from.

The shock & overwhem of having my computer go bung yesterday - which I need to do work casenotes & to use this forum etc.

My brother's mother in law is not expected to live long, due to cancer.

My other brother has been in hospital emergency for severe effects from an antidepressant medication.

Too much at once. I need my computer for so many work requirements - I don't know if it can be fixed.

Overwhelmed.

Where's the energy & focus to work through grief, or to move forward & put things back together?

Adge

[Former-Member]

Sounds like whole bunch of roadblocks and worry all at once @Adge Wish I could fix one of them for you. Maybe start saving for a new laptop. Glad you have the phone to go online at least. Good to see you 🐦🌿🌷💕