Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @CheerBear ...... 🤗💕
Beautiful photo ...... I agree @Zoe7 ...... I think it would be lovely as a painting.

I have a quiet day ahead. Managed the worst of the cleanup last night but have to go home (out walking at the mo) and start putting things away.

Might fit in a foot massage later.

S2 refused to go to CBT class this morning. I nudged him a few times over it, then left home. WH would have come back from his jog and taken over with getting him to class. I figured it was better for me to not be there to witness that, although I am in agreement that he should go ...... whatever I might say to challenge how WH chose to manage the situation would only cause us all more distress, no matter how diplomatically or gently I might try to say it. WH is hypersensitive in the wake of his diagnosis of ocpd, and will reflect a sense of injury that is painful to see.

Don't know until I get home whether S2 got to class or not, but I presume WH will have found a way to get him there, even calling the psychiatrist.

It's a beautiful morning down by the river.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Mazarita ...... 🤗💕

[CheerBear]

I'd love for you to use that for painting @Zoe7 and if
you do, would love to see it (if you'd like to share) 😊 My tooth is aching a bit still which is annoying. It's not the worst pain ever though so it may be ok (it kind of has to be because I'm too busy this week to sit at the dentist and I definitely don't feel like dragging the kids there). I would have thought after a week I wouldn't be needing painkillers but will see.

Hope your day is going along ok, or as ok as it can💗

[Zoe7]

Hiya @Mazarita Have been thinking of you alot lately - hope you are ok 

@Faith-and-Hope Wise move on leaving getting S2 to CBT class to WH - less stress for you to deal with in a situation where you are unlikely to 'win' or even be heard anyway - such a tough position to be in Hon but I'm sure you deal with it with your usual grace and dignity. 

Finding that light in the day down by the river and maybe getting a foot massage in later are both positives in the turbulence that is your world atm. As usual you continue to inspire me with your resilience and help keep my head above water with your compassion. 

Sending you love, hugs and a little extra strength today...

Zoe 

[Zoe7]

@CheerBear I still get some pain in my tooth which broke and I had fixed over 4 weeks ago - so I understand how long it can stick around for. I have to go back to the dentist to get my other tooth filled - but I am so reluctant to make an appointment after the allergic reaction last time. I have crashed massively since that happened and I am sure that was the beginning because I was starting to get a little more sleep until that happened. Since then the sleep has not only gotten worse but my depression has seen me hit rock bottom again. There are other contributing factors (including going to Sydney) - but once the downward spiral starts - it is nearly impossible to stop - even if I can 'see' it happening. Now it is a matter of readjusting and reassessing meds and trying to crawl my way back up again. That would be so much easier to face if the nights didn't exist!

thankyou you allowing me to use your photo to paint - I do have a few to finish before I get to that one but I will definitely post it when I do. I am not in the right 'headspace' at present to paint but am hopeful that will change soon. I think after I see my psychiatrist and GP on Wednesday I will have a better idea of how we are going and what steps to take next - at the moment the meds are making me too tired to do anything but still not allowing me to sleep consistently at night.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Apparently S2 told WH last night that he won't go to the CBT group classes, and WH has simply told him that he has to call the centre and let them know ....

Looks like he is developing a default to the controlling behaviours, now that he has been told they are not appropriate ,., ...

😳😳😳

Awesome ...... ❣️
Win ..... 🏅
Woo-hoo for WH ..... 🎉

[Zoe7]

wow @Faith-and-Hope happy dance 

[CheerBear]

I remember reading about your allergic reaction @Zoe7. I can imagine how reluctant you are to go back to the dentist after that 😞

I hope for you that you'll be in the right headspace to paint again soon. I'm so envious of people who are able to paint so well, like you and @Faith-and-Hope. Put a paint brush in my hand and I kind of just mash colours up and make a big mess, which is still fun 😛

Will be thinking of you on Wednesday and hoping these next steps are gentle easy in-the-right-direction ones.

[Zoe7]

...and I absolutely love your little crocheted critters @CheerBear - that is why the world isn't 'boring' - every single one of us are able to do something different to the person next to us (or on the other side of the screen) and that is why not only the forum community is a rich tapestry but so is the world - we all are different but have the same value in this diverse world.

[Faith-and-Hope]

I agree @CheerBear @Zoe7 ...... ❣️

You paint with a crocheting hook @CheerBear, and that's awesome ..... 🤗💕