Am Not Coping

[Phoenix_Rising]

@utopia It is always exciting to discover that one does have a brain - I was most relieved the first time I did the neurofeedback and saw that my brain activity didn't show as a flat line on the computer screen.

I am super glad that the news is as good as it can be. Given that both @Zoe7 and I have strictly banned any future strokes from occurring, it sounds like providing you moderate your exposure to reality tv, things should go ok.

[Zoe7]

Such great news for you @utopia  

and...

@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Phoenix_Rising @Former-Member @CheerBear @unknown etc.

I'm getting really tired of fighting all the time and not knowing what else to do to stop having to! I'm tired, sick and frustrated. I really don't know what I am going to do from here and I really am losing all interest in even caring. Yes - this will probably pass as it has done before but for now I am giving in to the fight and seeing where it takes me. I desperately need some sleep - peaceful, deep sleep and not unsettling and nightmare filled broken sleep. I don't know when I'll be back here - maybe tonight, maybe not. I am really stuck again not knowing where to turn and what to do. There is no need to be concerned, or to reply, I will be ok - it's just the last couple of months (and especially the last few weeks) have finally caught up to me and I am trying to avoid a massive 'crash'. I know I will be in your thoughts - as you all will be in mine - but I don't feel like I can continue like this and not drag others down with me - so whether I crash or not - I will do it alone.

Zoe

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sitting by you @Zoe7 .... so t go far, or smf or long ... I miss you when you are not here ....

💚💕🌷💐🐬💙❣

[Shaz51]

holding your hand  my sister @Zoe7 

 I miss you when you are not here  my sister

[unknown]

@Zoe7  i hope your ok - thinking of you

Hi @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@Phoenix_Rising@Former-Member 

[CheerBear]

Right here too @Zoe7, thinking of you, caring about you and hoping it eases for you soon 💗

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sitting by you @Zoe7 .... so don't go far, or stay away for long ... I miss you when you are not here ....

💚💕🌷💐🐬💙❣

[Former-Member]

hello @Zoe7

I think that what you are doing for yourself is a good thing.

You are not cutting off all ties, abandoning the forums altogether. You are having a break, rest from the forums.

They meet different needs for different people.

When this is the main support in your life it is good to step back and show yourself that you are strong enough to step away for even the shortest time initially.

For me I have found in my last couple of hospital stays that I have known when it is time to leave, when staying longer would not be of benefit if anything, I could be come reliant. It hasn't meant that I am cured, or able to be totally independent but ready for the next stage. Moving forward slowly.

We make some wonderful friends on here which can also add to the dilemma, feelings of not being here for them, however the break can be for as  long  as you choose it to be . It is your life you have the controls.

Well done and please recognise it as a positive step not a sign that you are about to crash. More a sign that you need a rest.

You can visit when ready and set your goals and reunite with all of your lovely friends on here.

All the best with your new plan.

[Former-Member]

hello @utopia

you must feel a sense of relief that you have a diagnosis and know where you are going from here.

It is very good that they picked it up and you can put some measures in place.

So perhaps the Statin Therapy will inadvertently improve your depression.

xxxxx

[NikNik]

Hi @Zoe7

I think considering whether the Forums are helpful is important for all of us. If it's causing negative feelings or making things worse, it's important to step back and figure out what it is exactly is helpful and what isn't - and based on that, make a plan on the best way to use the Forums for what works for you.

I'll touch base via email too.

Take care,

Nik