Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

I think I have needed something big to help balance out how big everything else is @Sans911, but I couldn’t just barrel right into it without over-balancing everything else.  This way I have stepped into it, more with my family’s intent to support me rather that true support itself, owing to the fact that we are carrying mi’s along with us .... 

Be that as it may, it still seems to be working out at this stage, so I am beginning to relax with that and go with the flow.  It will be bumpy, that is a given, but so far they are smallish bumps, or just things that I have to process and come to terms with regardless.

I hope that makes sense ....

[Faith-and-Hope]

Btw @Sans911 .... that wasn’t intended to be a complaint about carrying mi’s with us .....

Its become very clear that they were always with us, genetically, just masked by our former circumstance, and / or heightened by our current one.  With or without a diagnosis, we are learning to understand and work with our particular cocktail, and make our way forward from the most positive place we can find .....

Everything and everyone, generally speaking, is a combination of positives and negatives, strengths and weaknesses, and much of what we are struggling with now has flipped to an “unhelpful” state, shall we say ..... the more we can flip things back into a more workable, positive form, the better we are managing.

My art is proving supportive to our mix, at this stage, and in this form .....

[Sans911]

I completely understand @Faith-and-Hope. I don't think I've ever thought or seen you as a complaining person. You're often seen to be looking for the positive aspects, as you state above

[Faith-and-Hope]

It’s been a giant learning curve @Sans911, but I am beginning to see that the damage incurred in previous generations is starting to be overwritten in this one, and if we can understand the nature of the mi’s we are genetically linked to, we can tap into the strengths and positives.

There is incredible empathy and compassion found / fostered here .....

[Faith-and-Hope]

Quick Hi to everybody .... 👋💕

@Zoe7 @Sans911 @Snowie @Adge @CheerBear ..... anyone else around ....

[Faith-and-Hope]

There you are @Zoe7 👋💕

I have been looking for you ....

How did you sleep last night ?

[Zoe7]

Sorry Hon - had a really bad night and had to sleep again this morning - struggling to get going today but I'll get there @Faith-and-Hope I have my gp at 2pm so I need to be mobile for that at least. I don't even feel like having a shower but I need to - might wake me up a bit too.

How are you today?

[Faith-and-Hope]

I am a bit tired too @Zoe7 .... self-inflicted though ..... I went to bed at 2am after completing the abstract work I had been painting ..... very happy with it though.

I slept till nearly 8am, so that was around 6 hours sleep, and that will do.

I am in the library collating images of my papier-mâché for my visual diary.  

[Zoe7]

That is the kind of tired that you can cope with as you know you have achieved something @Faith-and-Hope  So pleased you finished your painting and are very happy with it 

I am finding it hard to get motivated at all today - was going to do the housework this morning but will now need to do that another day - I am happy snuggled up with Toby on the couch for now - have a little time before I need to have a shower and get ready so relaxing with the fluffball for a while is ok.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sounds like the shower and your appointment will be your achievements for the day @Zoe7 ..... and that’s enough .....

I am glad you made the soup yesterday, because it’s ready now when you need it today.  Good job 👍