Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

I agree .... ❣️

[Adge]

@Faith-and-Hope

Thanks for asking. I've been trying hard to read plenty of posts (on a daily basis) - but likes are all I've been able to manage sorry.

I've not been in a good state for a few weeks. I find writing & self-expression very difficult at present.

I have a thread called grief & loss - which l have written & received some really good responses on. Anyone is welcome to look in on that too.

As I say I'm still reading as many people's posts as I can & I'm thinking of you all.

Pretty much in survival mode.

Adge

[Zoe7]

Why can't I simply sleep and this all stop @Faith-and-Hope - beyond frustrated and so over it all. I really do feel like it is one thing on top of another and another and another.....

It only takes something small and seemingly insignificant to affect me so much. I don't think I want to die but I don't want to live - this isn't living....

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope I just saw @Adge's post and feel like I have just over-run his post - so ignore mine please.

[Adge]

This is your thread @Zoe so I'm sure it fine & well-intentioned of you.

I'm reluctant to write anything much about myself on other people's threads - but it was an enquiry about me. So I thought it okay & best for me to respond to it.

I hope you sleep soon.

Adge

[oceangirl]

@Zoe7

[Zoe7]

This is not MY thread @Adge - every thread is for everyone and anyone - no-one 'owns' a thread - that is what inclusivity should mean on the forum - that is why I am sorry that my post came after yours and you are more than welcome (infact I would encourage) you to write whatever you wish to write on any thread you feel you would like to write on - whether it be a response to a question/post or how you are going yourself...

Do not feel that you cannot write anywhere or anytime you like - the forum can only be a supportive community if people feel comfortable writing on any thread.

Zoe 

[Faith-and-Hope]

It's fine that your response came in after @Adge 's Hon ..... yours didn't take away from his at all.

Sending hugs to both of you, and you're absolutely right, we can respond respectfully on any thread here @Zoe7 ...... 💚💕

@Adge, I think we all have some days where we just read along without posting ..... I know it's a real panacea for me when I am feeling low, or flat, or agitated, or ..... this is our corner away from the world, exactly like the Octagonal room ......

On another note, I'm getting cleaned up after my hoards here today, and relatively early I might add ..... ✅

Back soon 💕

[Former-Member]

Hood to see you @Adge, hang in there 🙂
Hi @Faith-and-Hope, @Zoe7, @oceangirl and everyone, like following your conversations too 🌷🌿

[Zoe7]

Yet again I was close to sleep and laid down thinking I would fall asleep quickly as I could barely keep my eyes open. But of course I should have know better! The images and the feeings are so sickening that it is impossible to sleep and impossible to feel anything but 'how can I make this stop'!

I really don't know how much longer I can endure these feelings - I am sorry to keep writing the same things, and nothing seems to change, but I do not know what else to do. I do everything I am asked by my GP and psychiatrist - I am honest with them on where I am at and exactly how I am feeling - I take whatever is prescribed and do whatever is asked of me - but none of that seems to matter. I really need some respite fro 'being me' - it is too hard. I don't want to feel this way and I don't want to keep 'getting through' each day - this is no way to 'live'.