Am Not Coping

[NikNik]

I think you are so courageous. It sounds like the holiday has had amazing experiences and also some really low ones. I hope the good out weighs the bad when you think back to this trip.
I hope you get some rest tonight. I'm looking forward to hearing more about your adventure soon!

[Zoe7]

That image actually made me cry @Faith-and-Hope- I know I am missing my little fluff ball more than he is missing me 😔
@NikNik I already want to come back next year for Vivid - in the hope that I am a lot better and more able to cope with it longer. It really is very beautiful - the energy and atmosphere would be great to be part of if I didn't want to escape on my own!
I really hate how much I have changed and how 'vigilant' I am all the time - doesn't leave much energy to truly enjoy anything.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Well I hope you enjoyed those pancakes @Zoe7 .... ❣️

So jealous over here ..... 😋

[Owlunar]

I always miss my cat at night when I go away @Zoe7

During the day it's not a problem - at night I miss having this furry person stamping around on the bed complaining and giving me orders then finally settling down and purring near me - and then reading with her little fluffy body close to mind and she is a presence

Our furkids are special - I am sure we are better people because of them

Hugs - Dec

[Zoe7]

Went to the zoo today. All good until I went into one of the exhibits - can't even remember what it was - had a massive anxiety attack as it was extremely dark. Took a while to settle and have continued to be very shaky. Had another smaller attack at circular quay because there were so many people. At the hotel now and not going anywhere else.

[Faith-and-Hope]

So proud of you for giving it a go @Zoe7 ..... and please stay mindful of the things that you enjoyed to help temper the shakiness ..... so that you are making that mental note that some of it was a good day ..... add up the hours that were good ones maybe .....

Can you give yourself a nice sudsy bath now ? (Is there a bath-tub ?)
Do whatever cozy self-care things you can think of ?

Hugs n hugs girlfriend .... you did good .... ❣️

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope No bath 😔 Need to try to sleep - not good.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Oh dear @Zoe7 ..... sleep quickly then ..... and I hope you feel better than this tomorrow.

💐💐💐🤗💚💕

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope I wish I was home and had more meds 😔

[Faith-and-Hope]

Is there something else you can do that will help @Zoe7 ?

Chamomile tea has a calming effect on the system.

Can you play some gentle music ?