Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

Yes I do and I feel like I have let you down this week but I also know I had to do what I could to look after myself otherwise I would have made things worse for both myself and others @Faith-and-Hope 

I need to work out a way to get through the next week - day by day and sometimes minute by minute - that is all I can do. I hadn't even been able to contact HC until last night - just had nothing to say and nothing would have helped 

I am super excited for you starting your course though Hon - I will find ways to fill the day waiting for you to tell us how each day has been for you - that will be the highlight for me 

Your niece and nephew have kept me going this week - they have had lots of extra cuddles and been here in between appointments and sleeping. DBT was hard to get through but I hung in there and got through. I talked to my pdoc and told her how I was feeling. I need to call her if I am feeling unsafe - enough to do something about it - I have taken some precautions to help with that but I know I will find a way if it gets too bad.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Keep on keeping yourself safe Hon .... I will definitely be sharing my art journey with you, every step of the way, every day, so stay with me for this .... it is going to be grand 🦋💕

[Zoe7]

I will do the best I can @Faith-and-Hope - at the end of the day that is all anyone can ask of themselves anyway. Today is a little better than yesterday and I hope tomorrow is a little better than today again - definitely surviving one day at a time here! 

I don't have physio this week and will be my last pdoc session for a couple of weeks as the school holidays will begin after that and she has those weeks off. Hopefully by Wednesday I am doing much better than I am presently - I personally can't see it happening - think I have lost a lot of belief lately - but I am holding on and you are a major reason for that 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Holding you back @Zoe7 .... ❤️🌹❤️

[Zoe7]

I am very negative atm - I know that - but it has helped a little to be able to chat about it with you and not sit with it on my own @Faith-and-Hope - thank you for being here for me Hon - means the world right now 

Have you done your printing?

[Zoe7]

I need to sleep again - can't keep my eyes open  Will try to check in with you again later Hon @Faith-and-Hope 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Printing done now, but needed librarian help with it ...

Taje care @Zoe7 .... I will be looking for you.

[Appleblossom]

So glad to see you posting @Zoe7

and your art journey will be fascinating. @Faith-and-Hope 

Hope you dont mind if I share too.

[Faith-and-Hope]

 Not at all @Appleblossom 💕

[Zoe7]

Had a nap - feeling much the same but can at least keep my eyes open for now @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom

Have football on but not really interested in it - although would like WC to win 

My pop went for WC - don't think I have told you that before @Faith-and-Hope

Toby and Cat have both been fed so they are happy for now - they should be asleep fairly soon  

Still looking at the clock and hoping for time to go quickly then I can sleep again - that really is all I want to do - no motivation or energy to do anything