Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Zoe7 @Snowie @Former-Member .... anyone else around .... 👋💕

Sorry to hear your tooth is playing up so badly @Zoe7. I hope you can get it seen to tomorrow.

[Zoe7]

It is entirely my pleasure @Snowie - love hearing from you anytime - hugs Hon  

[Zoe7]

Me too @Faith-and-Hope - I bet D2 is happy with the win today - I fell asleep during the game and only saw the last quarter - was so happy they won for you both 

What are you up to tonight? How is your leg today?

[Sans911]

Evening @Zoe7

@Faith-and-Hope

@Former-Member

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[Zoe7]

Hi @Sans911 - I haven't caught up with how you are doing today - how is your sorting and housework going - if it is anything like mine then the words 'it isn't' come to mind lol

[Sans911]

Housework is up to date @Zoe7

because I have a guest staying here.

Bedroom ahhh... Very slowly chipping away at it. Hoping I can finish tonight, but likely tommorow. Lots of washing to put away.

Lots of other things haven't been attended to like certain emails, documents sent etc. But while I have a little increase in energy I'll try to get on top of them.

I only have a few months left of medical support from my employer who I last worked for 3 years ago. I really need them to pay my ambulance bills but I think they're stalling so they don't have to. I will loose my employment with them in October as its very unlikely I can work with them again. I feel that date looming and I don't think I'll cope well at that time with the loss of my dream job.

[Zoe7]

Well you have us here to lean on when that happens @Sans911 - and we can do for you what you do for us - that is be supportive, caring and compassionate but also be the voice of reason when our own voices are being negaitive.

Keep chipping away at the paperwork side of things - I know that can take time to get organised but it must feel nice to have most of the housework done - and you will have some company for a while which will also be nice for you 

[Sans911]

Thank you @Zoe7

That means a lot. I was so worried I would loose you a while ago, and I understand it must have been a challenging week. Obviously I don't want to rehash it all, but I'm grateful your still here talking to me. That means so much to me.

I do like a clean and tidy house. I feel so ashamed at the state of my bedroom that I rarely let people see this space of mine. The lounge room is a little unorganised too, but things are out of the way at least. I have always done very well with rental

inspections.

It's likely I will just get this house the way I likely and will need to move in the next 6-12 months.

[Zoe7]

I honestly do not know what I did @Sans911 and that made it so much worse for me at a very tough time already. I understand if you don't want to re-hash that period but it would be nice to know so I could fix whatever it was - and not make the same mistake again.

I didn't know for a while whether I'd be back - it was a very dark time for lots of reasons and the forum was not a place I could find any relief for that - couldn't even contact HC or talk to my pdoc or gp about it - not a good time for me at all.

I used to do well with house inspections too - if for any reason the agent couldn't mske it to an inspection she would leave it until the next time as she knew it would always be clean and tidy. I did rent the same place for 16 years so I must have done something right lol 

I hope you don't have to move in the next 6-12 months - it is a pain when you get something how you want it and then have to move - I moved classrooms 4 times in 3 years - the last year I had to move twice because we needed a better space for one of our aspergers students - that was a move I fought for though so I wasn't going to complain too much.

[Sans911]

The only way I would be happy to discuss is through the moderators off this platform @Zoe7

And to be completely honest it was my misinterpretation of something you said, so you didn't do anything wrong at all. But I'm not willing to discuss in this open platform. I feel quite ashamed and guilty at my treatment of you. It wasn't necessary. This is why I loose friends. I hold you in very high regard; I always have