Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

Hi @utopia - what a shite night - pun intended lol

Sorry that you are still not well - you have defintiely been through the mill the last couple of weeks. Make sure you look after yourself and keep positive thoughts in your head. I know how much the depression can start to kick in for you when you are sick - so lots and lots of self-care to keep that at bay atm 

I am pleased I pulled back as well - still got the emails - so had to log off completely to avoid reading anything else - so glad I did after what I saw this morning - that would have really concerned me and I was right on the edge anyway. I did get some sleep - it was up and down and very restless but not bad considering... no nightmares ... some negative thoughts but coped with them better than usual - big tick!

I am glad that Loula had somewhere to go - I don't see it as MY thread - the title alone would suggest that it is a good place to go to seek support - and there you were 

... it is also a good place to go to just chill and feel safe - when needed - balance is good!!

I think the most positive thing for me is that I could help to a certain point and (even though I didn't feel good about it at the time) I did step away when I felt it was getting too hard for ME - I wouldn't have done that if no-one else was around and that would not have been good for me - soooo glad you were there... and others jumped in to help also.

I didn't even stay and chat to @oceangirl for long - I did need to step away completely and I didn't want to make anyone else's night more difficult - both things were important to me and in doing so it did help me to stay where I was emotionally and not fall any deeper. 

Tough end to the night - but some wins personally for me - growth hey????

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

Why is there a stigma? Bl^^dy good question - I dunno

But Freud - yes - he was a pioneer in the field - said it was all due to - shhh - Dec is whispering - sex.

That's why women startimg having hysterectomies - they were having their hysterics removed -

And as well as Freud I have reads a lot of Renaissance History - sex was good but women were bad and tainted and if they had a baby a man was not supposed to look at them - or something - in case he caught something I guess

But we should be past that and so many people are not - darn it - hence the stigma

I am sounding off - I hope this is not too dramatic

cya Utopia

Dec

[utopia]

Huge tick @Zoe7. Big wins for you. It's not always easy to walk away - even though you need too. So that's a huge learning tick. And please know - if you put the @ symbol and then type moderator after it - a moderator will step up. This has been added so that when someone is in crises, not only can they monitor the situation - but they can assist.
The reality is - we are not professionals. And as much as we want to help others - we need to put our own health first - & sometimes, we are out if our depth.
Just like you, I'm learning to step away when my health needs it.
We are becoming smart little people!
No nightmares - that's great. My dreams were odd and vivid and disturbing. But easy enough to deal with this morning.
I'm planning on reading more of my Aboriginal Heritage book today & enjoy the sun a bit.
Do you have any plans?

[Owlunar]

Yuk - I am sorry @utopia

That was not good

Have a quiet day and recover -

Dec

[utopia]

@Owlunar. Oh the stigma associated with being female.
I just posted on my Facebook, how I put fresh white sheets on the bed and then that night I got my period & then had to take the sheets off and out clean ones on.
Some friends weren't happy about me posting about the mess of periods - & I wasn't even descriptive.
I don't know why we still have a problem with saying vagina or talking about our periods or other bodily functions.
Are we still being punished for being women? Are our bodies hideous? Do we need to hide away from what is a normal everyday occurance for half the worlds population?
Why is this still taboo?

[Faith-and-Hope]

"Having their hysterics removed .... " oh @Owlunar .... you're gorgeous .... !!

Hi @Zoe7 .... I came on the scene a bit late yesterday .... hope you and @oceangirl are okay this morning .....

Love n hugs .....😘 ❤️🤗

[utopia]

@Owlunar. Got a bee in my bonnet now.
Do you know there are girls and young women in our society, who remove all body hair - because they perceive it to be dirty.
Some girls now always wear a panty liner - because they don't understand our normal bodily functions.
They want to remain nice and 'clean' - whatever that means.
If only we would discuss our bodies more openly. Let the younger generation know how a normal body works. And that there is nothing wrong or dirty or unclean about their bodies.
Rant over.

[Zoe7]

Big wins for both of us @utopia 

I really could feel that 'unable to help and unable to cope' feeling last night - so yes I did do the right thing for myself - we are both becoming smart little people (and if you new how short I was that is incredibly apt lol)

Glad you have been able to deal with your dreams this morning - I really expected nightmares - probably added to my up and down night - but relieved it was only broken and restless sleep and not super distressing (wow- I am starting to sound like @Phoenix_Rising lol)

My plans for today - chemist and GP (as usual this afternoon), have already watered the garden and pulled the shelves down in the kitchen to be able to wash the walls easier. Then I am going to try and tackle a bit more of the spare room - need to get set up for @Faith-and-Hope and I's painting fest when WH leaves - going to be fun - looking forward to developing something along with someone else and seeing how it turns out.

Sounds like your plans today are going to be nice and peaceful and relaxing. TICK TICK TICK 

[utopia]

Sounds like a great creative endeavor @Zoe7. So how will you & @Faith-and-Hope do it?
Are you going to say a theme or an object? Maybe the colours to use & then compare how you both interpreted that with your finished pieces? That would be an interestingprocess if you did it that way.

[Zoe7]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope Yep I'm ok - thanks for your concern. I did step away (read above posts to our little Cocky friend) - hug win for me personally - did make it easier - still hard but dealt with it 

How are you this morning - fix your remote? WH settled down in your head?

Zoe