Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

Hi @utopia I know you are not doing so well at  the moment and need some time to yourself. Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, I miss having you around and I hope your appointment goes really well tomorrow.

Sending you lots of love and hugs

Zoe 

[utopia]

Thanks @Zoe7. I wish I was able to be around more.
I have to hide away a bit when I'm not doing so good. I can't help anyone else. My negative self talk saps all my energy. That and my fears. So I'm better not to air those fears out loud - until I'm with my psychologist - who can hopefully shoo them away.
9am centrelink job network appointment tmw morning. That's going to be fun - not! But have to attend. Then psychologist at 2.45. Was lucky to get an appointment at short notice.
Fark. I'm too tired to have to do all this again. And I wish my ex employer was made to pay for what they did to me. Nit bloody fair. They don't even get in trouble. While I loose tens of thousands of dollars, my job and my mind. And I have to struggle and work so hard to try and keep on track. In what world shouldn't they have to pay?? It's just bull s***.
And I'm rambling. So I'll stop.
Thanks for thinking of me.
Hopefully I'll be right to talk tomorrow night.
Sweet dreams friend.

[Zoe7]

No it's not f..ing fair my beautiful little Cocky friend. You don't deserve to be going through this shite because of their negligence and lack of accountability!!!!!

When you are ready you will be back - don't worry about having to help anyone else out - just look after yourself. 

...and if you need to air anything then I'm here for you - payback time my friend. I'm doing ok at the moment and have all the time in the world for you 

Goodluck tomorrow ...and if you still aren't up to talking tomorrow night then that is really ok.

Let's make a date for Sunday night - no matter how you are going. I'll join you again on the darkside to watch that stupid, mindless tv show that we are both now hooked on.

Love ya @utopia

Sweet dreams to you also

Zoe 

[Owlunar]

Some things just aren't fair - and what can we do?

Let's just say there is a lot I would like to say but better I don't - just know I understand

Centrelink Job Review at 9.00am - hells bells - I hope you don't have to wait too long after getting up early - sounds terrible - I would not enjoy that at all - and I have been there and done that

But ramble away - you are entitled - I get it - life hands you sh^t on a plate and we don't have to like it - better to be honest with ourselves about how we feel - be polite to the people at Centrelink

Thinking of you

Dec

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7

What's the stupid mindless TV show? I might enjoy it too - unless it's I'm a Celebrity etc - but then - that's on every night atm - and it's painful.

I hope you are okay - I feel as if I have been busy lately - but I am here right now

Dec

[utopia]

@Zoe7 & @Owlunar. The mindless show is Married at First Sight! On Sundays and Mondays.
On the way to CentreLink. Massive Roadworks - on single lane road. Got stuck behind trailer load of sheep all the way into major town. Meant to be a 40 minute drive. Got into job network. Got told "you're late. You'll have to come back Monday at 1pm." Told them I'm working. They don't care. Told me to go to CentreLink office. I go there. They tell me, job network have canceled my CentreLink benefit and they can't help me. Said I'm not leaving until I see someone.
I saw someone. Gave them my medical certificate. They rang job network. I have to go to appointment on Monday.
Then I cried. So they put me in a room with social worker. When I calm down and go to my car - I see a text msg job network sent. I don't need to go in Monday now. Because I have the medical certificate that covered me for this week!!! I knew that. But they wouldn't listen. Just assumed I was lazy or something for getting there late. Even though I didn't have to go in due to medical certificate. Bastards.
Then I gwt my latest Psych Review from WorkCover. With a whole new diagnosis. (See post - Yet Another Diagnosis).
So by the time I saw my psychologist this afternoon, I was angry and combative and depressed and swearing. But he calmed me down - a bit.
So all in all - it's been a really crappy day.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Okay @utopia ..... maybe you've done enough swearing today ..... give it a rest and we will take over the swearing on your behalf and continue until sundown .....

Whoa ..... you poor thing !!

What can I send you from my iPhone ....

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[Pepsimax]

@utopia @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 I'm sorry you had such a awful day @utopia

[TheVorticon]

Sorry to hear how busy and rubbish your day was @utopia. The whole CentreLink thing sounds completely infuriating and upsetting. It's good that you got to debrief a bit with your psychologist. Do you have any self-care-like things you can do for yourself to look after you this evening?

[utopia]

@TheVorticon. My self care plan is to ignore it all. Watch mind numbing tv. And sleep early. And hope tomorrow is better.