A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Faith-and-Hope]

💖💞 @Emelia8 .....

[Peri]

Dearest @Emelia8 ,

i was so pleased to see a post from you, but saddened by the content.

i do hope it was not my last post that has caused you to withdraw or feel misunderstood. In fact I understand how you feel only too well. My husband died a long time ago and I miss him terribly still. He could be my tormentor but no one has ever made me laugh like he did I treasure that.  I am truly sorry about putting that up, it was unfeeling of me and unnecessary.

i also understand how you feel about your dear mother.  It is still a new loss for you. My mother died in 2005 , five days after my birthday, which is coming up. I have been thinking about her a lot just recently. Her loss causes me physical pain   I am sure your mother heard you when you spoke to her.  Hearing is the last sense to go, they say. 

I feel so concerned for you and your loneliness.  I am sure lots here will identify with withdrawing as a way of coping.    I have really done that recently in my life and I don’t know how to get out of it.

i am so sad about Holly, just keep on loving her as you do.  

I am sending you hugs and 💕 peri

[Shaz51]

I am sorry to learn of your increased back pain @Emelia8 

please make sure you drink plenty of water my wonderful sister 

sitting with you , you may not be feeling strong but you are one very strong lady to everyone here and a wonderful friend 

[Bunniekins]

@Emelia8  Oh sweetheart. We are all here for you. Pea loves you so very much.

Just send a post for me and I will be there. Love pea

[Eve7]

I am so sorry for your pain @Emelia8  and truly wish I could say or do something to help you feel better.

You are a very precious person.

💜💕💜

[Former-Member]

 @Emelia8  you're the one 

 WE should be thanking, you have poured out yourself here on the forums for so long, so articulate, honest and open, and validating of others,  affirming and loving so many here. And Your life story of resilience is also so inspiring, teaching us so much... 

We totally understand your current need for more space than usual, no need to feel bad about that.

Sorry you havent been doing so well of late "disheartened, disappointed and misunderstood" Would it help to talk here about that more? (hope its not us). Pulling back is a normal response after any trauma... you've been through so much of late.  Self isolation is a  hard habit to break, so keep sticking your head out now and then. 
Of cause you still feel hubby's loss deeply 😢 and little Holly just isn't the same... when she does go   you will feel it 😢 but I beg to differ that you'll have "nobody & nothing" It might feel that way (I did when my girls pup eventually died and I was alone in the house. Adopting mums little Georgia has helped. Could you go find a rescue dog maybe Em? Now, not after Holly passes. They're good for us, and us them 🐾

Your mums passing anniversary would be messin' with your head (know how that is). We never forget these days, and only two years is early days, and a lot sure HAS happened since. Try not to feel bad you couldn't be there with her in the end, she wouldn't want that and I'm sure she knows you love her 💕

Sorry about old back injury kicking back at you, and  nothing seems to help. Do you know what's triggered it? Have you had a recent scan of it? To see what's going on? Why there's this unusual  increase in pain? I doubt it's the anti-cancer pills causing it if they didn't at first and it's not in other joints... That undercurrent threat of the cancer returning must be so hard Em. I'm concerned about that with you.
Did todays physio help? And the psychologist session- did that go well? Are you feeling "sorted out a bit" ? Baby steps Em ❤️ 
Everything in NSW sure is very much up in the air with COVID crisis re your dad. Better of at home. You'll see your dad eventually.
"NSW the lepers of the country" 🤭 you made me chuckle... But it could happen to any of us at any time really. This delta variant sure is a game changer for Yas. Not much choice but to  ride it out ❣️
Thanks for your update Em, I get concerned for you more when you're quiet, so thank you, and take it easy 💐💙

[NatureLover]

@Emelia8  am so sorry you're living with such bad physical pain as well as emotional pain 😞 I really hope it eases very soon. 

Thinking of you tomorrow with the 2 year anniversary of your Mum's death 😞

Hoing that your psych appt today helps. 

Sending 💜 and wishes. 

[WIP]

Precious @Emelia8 

💞💕💕💖

[Appleblossom]

@Emelia8 

We have walked a long way ... and seen and felt many similar things.  You have helped me forgive Australian women for being so unable to relate to me.  All my love.

[Zoe7]

@Emelia8