A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Bellarose75]

My dearest Em, I am so very sorry for your loss. Words fail me right now, so please just know that I am with you very step of the way. Love you my beautiful friend. @Emelia8 

[Former-Member]

@Emelia8 💕

[MDT]

Thinking of you @Emelia8
Take care

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hugs @Emelia8 ..... 🤍🌹

[Anastasia]

Hi ho hi ho,

Dragging myself out of bed to go today...I see you online my sister...in your pocket for your appointment today...love you more @Emelia8 💐💞

[Emelia8]

Thank you @Anastasia @Faith-and-Hope @MDT @Former-Member @Bellarose75 @Peri @Owlunar @Appleblossom @Eve7 @Bow 

I think I've hit the wall today.  Feeling so awfully lost.  Wandering aimlessly from room to room with no idea what I'm doing.  I realised I hadnt eaten since a poached egg for yesterdays breakfast.  Other than that I've only had a few half cups of tea ... as they go cold every time due to phone calls or other interuptions.  Running out of gas.  I cant fall into a heap just yet, I still have so much to organise.  I'm waiting for the funeral director to call me this morning.  The lady I have been dealing with wasnt in when I rang a while ago, but will be in at 9am.  I will arrange a meeting when she calls back.  And see what else they need.  

Going to scramble an egg I think and make a pot of tea.  Need to eat something to keep going.  And I already have my cancer pill out ready to take. I remembered that anyway.

So so lost

Em

[Snowie]

@Emelia8 💟

Sending lots of love and support to you as you try and navigate through today.

It is good that you are looking after yourself with something to eat and a pot of tea.

💕💕💕

[Former-Member]

This might inspire you Em💕

[Faith-and-Hope]

Beautiful @Former-Member  ^^^^ ❣️

Not surprised at all @Emelia8 🤍🌹💞  I am glad you are onto it.  Maybe try to view your self-care as another task to factor in at the moment, and see to it clinically, to make sure your needs are being met while you are surviving this zone you are in between hubby's passing and the funeral ?  Hugs n hugs.

[Owlunar]

@Emelia8 

Hi Em

You were bound to hit a wall - now it has happened you can take stock and take a well-earned and well-needed break - there is no need to fall in a heap - turn your phone off - eat something easy to prepare and eat and go to bed for a while - don't try to sleep - if you do that's good - perhaps read something light for distraction - or whatever you choose to do - take a couple of hours for yourself and rest up.

Whatever needs to be done doesn't need to be done straightaway - I believe the funeral is next week so there is plenty of time. Undertakers are certainly used to people who have had a major loss and are battling the early stages of grief. Most of us have been there and know the total upset of ordinary life which still goes on. How does that happen?

Do your best to take time for yourself - each day would be good - it's not easy to prioritize but necessary. 

I'm so glad you remembered your cancer pill - that's an important issues - it's so easy to forget normal things at such a time - perhaps put an alarm for it in your phone. Such much to remember all the time. 

Of course you feel lost - so so lost. I know - you were a wife a few days ago and now you are not - but you are still you - so much has happened so quickly and unexpectedly and you have done so well

We are all still here for you - and as your supporters - we are supporting each other too 

Sending more hugs

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