im back..... i think

[Anony18]

Hi @outlander i have been thinking of you as always. Just caught up on the threads and can see you are still having a tough time. I hope your nausea is now kept at bay. With the cyst I know it is hard not to "touch" it and leave it alone. I am same with anything, scabs etc. itchy fingers as I call them!!! But try and resist. It is like that enjoying mozzie bite. Try resist scratching it cause it will just make it worst. Try my dearest friend 💕💕💕 

I want admit that I do feel bit guilty that I haven't been as here for you as much as I use to. But I know that you are in good hands and please know am here still. Am always thinking of you wishing things will be better or St least your day be better xx Do stay strong my friend 

[Anony18]

Have to have a rant @outlander. I am sorry as I know it is so minor but I have to. My mother caring as she is just came in here to talk about my ex. See only told family other day because it was when I felt comfortable. She made these comments about how my ex and family had issues so she knew it wasn't gonna work. That I don't seem upset because I knew in myself. She commented why she isn't someone I confide in anymore. I just told her cause never in but the reality is that although I know her heart is in right place talking to her makes me anxious or rather her comments makes me anxious and I don't want to feel that way. I know what she will say. I know what she says is probably right but I need to get there myself not someone telling me what I should do or think and constantly tell me to pray and all be ok. Yes I am slightly religious but not like her. 

And now  my family is obviously trying set me up with someone. Of find people intro me to. I told her no thanks, she told me to be open, how about no! Because being forced into a situation I am not comfy with and not my own idea makes me anxious. They don't know about latest guy and let's leave it that way or they will query a million and one things. 

Sorry...just needed rant 😐:face_with_rolling_eyes:

[eth]

@outlander  I have posted on the other thread.  

[outlander]

So i guess you didnt start your sleeping routine then @eth
Did you get any sleep?

[outlander]

@Anony18
Please dont feel guilty for not being here 💕💕 you are still with me in spirit and i know that. People can only be here and do what they can when they can 💕
And yes stupid itchy fingers. Ive coveree it now so that should deter abit
Well im hoping so anyway..


And your always welcome to rant.
At least shes ok with the breakup but really it doesnt matter anyway as its your life not hers. Your the one dating them not her. Now about this other partner if they start to tell you they have found someone else i think then or even sooner it would be a good idea to at least meantion you like someone else. Even though they might ask a thousand questions its prob better than them trying to force you into another relationship.

Speaking of this new guy how going? Hows thw relationship going? Have you made it official your dating yet?

[eth]

I got about 6 1/2 hours @outlander.  How about you?

[outlander]

I dont really know @eth
I stopped looking at the clock and woke up a few times but thats minor for me. So im.guessing around 4 hrs..

[eth]

Can you have another nap if you feel like it or do you have to go to work today?

[Anony18]

That is a good idea @outlander - covering it so you don't pick at it or at least try. Hopefully it works!

I think that is what annoys me is that although yes it is my life, she feels the need as a mother that she has to know everything. And she may not like fact that I don't tell her everything like my other siblings do. They will eventually find out if things progress further but for now I want to keep it to myself. They may try introduce me to guys but I probably won't meet these guys. Anyway alot of the guys they know are asians which (no offence) I am not into.

As for the current guy, things are going well it seems. I see him almost every day and hopefully he doesn;t mind it. He doesn't seem to be anyway. We are not official but it seems to be going that way. I don't think it will be official til maybe after our holidays. I am not in any rush, just enjoying it for the moment. He does make plans for us in the future. Well I won't say concrete plans but we talk about watching a movie when we return, going to this place upon our return. Even tv shows we have to watch them together when it comes out. They are small but guess it is a good sign.

How are you today?

[Shaz51]

hello @Anony18, @outlander, @eth, @Former-Member xx