Mum Severe Anxiety / Depression +++

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member
Sitting with you ....

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

A few more days have passed and I guess things are much the same for you

You know your Bible right -

"Be still and know that I am God"

"In my father's house there are many mansions and I go there now to prepare a place for you"

"The Lord is my shepherd - I shall not want"

I know his grace is sufficient for us but at such times this is hard to think about - but I know that grace surrounds you right now my dear dear friend

Sending my love and prayers

Dec

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thinking of you too @Former-Member ......

[Former-Member]

So sorry to hear of your situation with all of your family..

you have so much conviction and love regardless of moods and behaviours of family..

take things slowly..reserve your energy..

thinking of you silently..

[Former-Member]

hi there, had a 'flat' day yesterday so did the bare essentials. Mum is still with us but bedridden with Oxygen. She's finally getting all the attention she's longed for (too sick to make us prove we want to lol). Yesterday she snapped at me (in front of my twoface sister - explain later). As i was putting the nasal prongs back on mum, with sis right there - i explained. "I trimmed the nasal prongs down for you mum, so theyre not so uncomfetable, and you wont have to rip them off of as much..." (we use to do this for the babies & childen's ward). Mum wacked "interferring again are you!" which my sister thought was pretty funny & took over. Of cause they couldnt get it on (consistent in sabataging my efforts) but i got it all in plass while my sister was bothering staff for a new one. (hate it when they smugly try to make me look bad to others like that). Sibling rilvery i guess, stupid! I told you this story because it reveals much where im at. Walkingbon tenderhooks with backstabbing siblings who seem to resent that i've moved in (helping dad - his 'carer' re mibility issues & mod dementia) - typical 'no win' with my family. Now they think ive moved in to claim the estate wt#! My mother's dying & dad needs a carer, none of them will stay with dad - so Im here doing it all, and they have time for bickering, backstabbing & vein imaginings. Grr grr double grr! Guess Im the odd one out because i lived away and they dont know me anymore, or maybe they seem 'shown up' I just wish they'd get off my back and help more. poor dad

snyway, gotta get dad organised so i can get off to church.

Hope youre sll doing ok

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hang in there @Former-Member.  It’s a tough gig any way you look at it and it sounds like you are doing a Stirling job.

💜💐💕

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member

you stand proud and hold your head up high...

you know in your heart that you are doing so much caring...that is what counts..

try to dismiss their negativity...Hmm harder than it sounds when having years of it...that is the answer really they have been like this for years...their issues

try not to waste your precious energy on their childish behaviour..

reserve your energy for you

thinking of you

[Shaz51]

Thinking of you  @lapses,  

[Owlunar]

Aw - my dear sweet friend - I am sending my favourite cyber-hug pic today - and thinking of you a lot - it was Dad anniversary yesterday and I thought of you a lot because this end-of-life stuff is so darn hard and you have a bunch of spiky, irritating and selfish childish sibs carrying on trying to make up for their inattention because you have done the hard yards and they have not and it guess from my own family

Neayah - it's all about them - and you are far better - the much better sister - daughter - person - whatever - I know this - everyone else here knows this - and we love you and we are here for you and all of us in different ways holding you up and praying for you or thinking of you and trying to be there for you in whatever way we can

You can't change them or what they think but you are better and yeah - I can hardly believe how bitchy people can get around this times and what my sibs were like - remember I walked out on my mother years before she passed and in an untold story I know I had the best part at the end with both of my parents

As do you - it's just really hard to see with all the carping happening

And the nurses have seen it all before - before - before - there is nothing new under the for them - you have been there yourself - I am sure - in your 30 years as a nurse - oh yes!!

My parents' anniversaries have both come to pass and I am okay - I am doing okay - even if I have had a lot happening in my life I still feel I am doing okay and thinking about you a whole lot

Dec

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Owlunar, mum died this morning, She didnt look like my mum, so horrible is thw shadow of death. I took dad in 1130pm & hovered for another 8hrs, no real sleep for 36hrs now, I'm so tired. Dad seems to be coping. None of the siblings have come to see or sit with dad today. And mail arrived from toxic sister taking dad to court to take control of his finances & guardianship. Today of all days. I had to org the funeral home to take mum away and inform all of a meeting tomorrow with the funeral home to make final arrangements. Bur only bro4 wants to come so far. i feel so alone and so much triggers memories of my girl's fuberal... My head is pounding, too many tears - SI sticks its head in now & then - life is hard, and death simply sucks! Dont know how much dad (early dementia) is taking in but when she had passed and we entered the room, he said "she looks more settled" It made me hug him and say "she's at peace now" Bro2&3 were physically with her when she passed. I am glad i missed that moment really. Bro3 clearly beedec me to help pack up mums stuff, it was sooo hard for him, and a job too beneath bro2

i want to hide in the forrest far away