Thanks @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @traveller. @outlander , appreciate your replies. You've caught me out - when dad goes and my house - I can't see what's left to live for. And don't say "your son" because he's better off & manages quite well with next to no time with me. I'll be doing my will with these solicitors and yep, prepare to leave when my job here is done. Its just too hard by myself, nobody wanting to walk beside me, not even for a weekend. Over it! And why can't my shitty sis and bro2, the only ones in the family without an MI hospital admission background, why can't the help? Why would they rather I was out of the picture? Why the black & white attitude, all or nothing? They think I'm in control, but I sure would like their input, or have them visit. Sis wanted all control, refusing to go 'joint guardian' with me then backed out when she realised she had a legal obligation to include me as carer in the application. She's stated she "doesn't get on with the current carer" as her reason for pullingvout rather than going up not. Its just her and favourite bro2 that have blocked me and dad out completely for months. How is it that one minute I'm too 'unwell' to be dad's carer one minute yet they abandon and withdraw all their contact. Hmm, maybe they're waiting for me to collapse under the readure. Be better to share the load I thought. My last dad update text msg to them was addressedaddressed " Dear Clayton's Family" naughty I know but they suck! And its people likecthwm that make life so much harder to hang on to.
Trying to have a rest after asking dad fo blood test, and lunch and groceries. Got a backache for some reason but might go check out the sapvos 1/2price sale, he a fix (shoaholic fix!).
Dad had a big fall 2days ago, really worried about him getting frail.
Thanks for letting me talk about the si plan, need to deal with that dark cloud hoveringvin the background. Now the cats out of the bag I hope its not an issue for you all. I'm getting on you know.
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