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[Eve7]

Just dropping by with love and prayers @Bow 

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[ApricotJam]

@Bow  I have been following this thread for a long time. You have shown enormous strength and persistence along your journey and I hope at some level you can feel the support and care that people here have for you. I pray that you are where you need to be. 

[outlander]

@Bow

[Snowie]

@Bow 💗💗💗

[Eve7]

You are loved very much by us on the forums @Bow 

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[Bow]

I'm really sorry about my last few messages. I'm safe now. 

I've had the shittiest few days. Things have been really hard. I had an attempt on Friday and then panicked and called for help. 

I'm currently in a psych ward. Been here since being medically stable. I haven't been able to eat since last week. My BSL are really low, they checked them every 2 hrs over night and have been threatening to put me on a higher level of care or transferred to a medical ward. I'm currently hooked up to an IV line with a nurse sitting beside me. They keep telling me it's a psych ward and they aren't equipped for this stuff. Maybe if they jumped on my not eating earlier I wouldn't of got to this point. Psych wards just aren't set up for eating disorders. Now I'm waiting to be reviewed by a doctor. 

the longer I go without eating the harder it feels to start again. I wish I could properly express how difficult the battle inside my head is over eating. Knowing that my body needs nourishment, when my blood sugar levels are so low and I feel so crummy, yet not being able to eat. The war that wages inside my head is horrible. But I can't fully put into words. 

Anyways, just rambling. I was allowed to have my phone while stuck in my room on a drip. 

[Bow]

Thank you @Eve7 hope you are ok? 

and thank you @ApricotJam  im not really sure what to say in response to your comment. It is hard to accept that. 

thank you also to @Snowie @outlander @Anastasia @Emelia8  

[Emelia8]

@Bow 😔 👀👂💝

[Eve7]

I’m ok today thanks @Bow  and very pleased to hear from you and knowing you are safe for now.

You are very much in my thoughts and prayers hon. One moment at a time.

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[Anastasia]

Thank you for letting us know you are safe @Bow 🙏

You are in my heart and thoughts sweet Bow 💞