@Faith-and-Hope, @Kurra, @Former-Member, @Shaz51, @Appleblossom, @Mazarita, @utopia, @Jacques, @Sahara, @eth, @oceangirl, @Former-Member, @CheerBear, @Phoenix_Rising, @Zoe7, @Pepsimax, @TAB, @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @Owlunar, @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @Bimby2, @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @soul, @outlander, @BlueBay, @Queenie, @Former-Member and anyone I have forgotten (I will feel terrible when I realise someone who has temporarily slipped my mind)
just checking in.
Im writing this post for a few reasons. Firstly I want to apologise for all the shout outs I've had and not responded to. Thank you all for your continued support. I've been struggling in real life and on the forum for a while now. I'd come on here and then run away again (I have mastered the running away bit). This year everything in my life seemed to becoming more overwhelming as the year has gone on, culminating in my lowest point a month ago when I deactivated my account and didn't plan on existing anymore (ended up in hospital).
The last few weeks have been ok and I've just had a whole week of feeling ok and not being in crisis once for the first time this year. I have struggled to post much on here during the past few months. I have followed everyone's up and downs but have felt paralysed posting much. I have also been battling huge shame, identity and confidence issues (like many of us do from time to time).
So here I am saying I'm really sorry for my very erratic posts on the forum and for not responding to so many kind and thoughtful posts from you or even a good morning. I'm trying to come back but it will take a while to find my feet again and find my place on the forum, I am really unsure what that will look like now and it may be different from the past.
Wishing you all the very best 🤗💐💜 and 💐🐢 for PR 😊
PS I will probably find it overwhelming just now with too many responses but a like to know you've read it would be cool 😎.
from Niqua 
