Good morning @Former-Member@Shaz51@Appleblossom and all
It pains me to read that you have been so badly hurt by family @Former-Member. I can relate to this - and sometimes this pain can shadow the good in our life - well that was happening with me. And worry impounded this. I am starting to see this and am now turning my focus from the pain elsewhere - such as the garden. It does not always work immediately but I feel better than before. Hopefully with practice it will get better and better.
Just want you to know @Former-Member that you have a friend here. I know it's not the same as the real life ones but where I can support you here I will. I wish we could have that chat and cuppa too - it would be wonderful and we would laugh as well - guaranteed. People don't do the latter enough.
I had a wonderful phone call last night - one that took me completely by surprise and could not have come at a better time. Last night I was starting to feel that I was failing in life - wasn't making much of a difference. With the way my daughter was and all....Then a male co-workers mother rang whom I have never spoken to before (he had my number). She told me that her son told her he was planning to take his life but I changed his mind. I had no idea of his plans - I just always treated him well, made him laugh and helped him when down and anxious. When he saw the bad I spoke back pointing out the good - in him as well. He is always helping others - even When others would not be so kind to him (which disgusted me, but these people will never be happy either i explained to her, as inside feelings of emptiness plague regardless how it seems on the outside - lots of friends etc, they are empty and is why they are so vindictive).
I had no idea how seriously bad he was feeling though . That has made such a difference to how I view life now and my place in it. We can all make a difference - even when we don't feel up to it or feel powerfless to do so. The power of kindness, laughter, compassion and listening to someone when in need can change everything. So now when I feel down I remind myself of that phone call. In a way he saved me as well.
The mother said her son did not know she rang me and I asked her not to tell him. Let things continue as normal.
With my daughter I have to let her make her own decisions and to stop worrying. She knows I love her and will be there - I pray for her safety and will now let the future take care of itself until she works it out. With baby steps I think I can do this now. I trust she will come good one day. All will be well.
Glad you managed to get some rest. It can make the world of difference in how we cope. Never say never my friend as tomorrow is a new day and the future is not ours to know. It will get better as we work it out. It can take some doing but with baby steps we will get there to a better place. One day at a time. Hope you are feeling okay today. Thinking of you alway and here for you - 🤗💜xx
